After almost two years of using anti-depressants and finally being able to have an existence without their support is like looking at things for the first time with such clarity and detail that is really hard for me to define.
Medication helped me but to make sure the help gets done it also numbs the senses at a certain point - i was not blind but i felt a thin veil around my life that is now unfolding.
Intuition is in the tip of my fingers, my body is so restless, my eyes so curious.
I no longer feel i am drowning in the changes happening around me i feel finally i was brave enough to take a dive and explore the other side of things.
My head is loose from clock's pointers, i see everybody running but can not feel the rush.
Dawn, day, sunset, night they all dance together in my mind but i don't care.
Maybe this is what some people call being crazy, maybe it is just being here.
' i will wade out
till my thighs are steeped in burning flowers
I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
with closed eyes
to dash against darkness
in the sleeping curves of my body
Shall enter fingers of smooth mastery
with chasteness of sea-girls
Will i complete the mystery
of my flesh
I will rise
After a thousand years
And set my teeth in the silver of the moon '
'We broke everything that was right
We both enjoyed a good fight
And we solved all the holes we had to breathe
To make the other one leave
And we stole every moment we had to make the other one feel bad
And we hoped that we could be what we knew
We would never turn out to be real
And I loved the way you looked at me
And I miss the way you made me feel
When we were alone. '